I am too grown to be this thrown...I can take a hint. Avoid me no longer. The longing, the desire, the back and forth is done. I don't want to play this (or any other) game with you. I'm grabbing the ball that I (once) threw in your court and I'm going home. The heart that you've played with is mine and I am taking it back. I am a fool for love no longer. I no longer recognize the person that I used to be, not sure of who I've become. You sold a dream that I don't think I can afford. A dream that looked nice, and appeared inviting but it's no different than what is already on the love torn foreclosure list. I'll stay where I'm at. I am cool with being alone. I'm alone but far from lonely.
Everyone around me is rooting for you and I don't know why?...They are all in your corner and have put me against the ropes. Love TKO, never. I came out in the first few rounds swinging but none of my punches landed. I'm tired. As the adage goes " Love is a fight, worth fighting" but I'm winded. My arms are tired and my head is throbbing. The only thing that should be pounding is my heart but instead it has been pounded on. I offered to give you my heart and you took my soul. I swallowed my pride and the after taste is awful. My honor and integrity are all that I have and I have decided to leave now while it is all still intact.
Dear Friends, fear not. It was not meant to be. I am okay with that. There will be others...and of that I'm sure. Just know that I am deflated but not defeated.
Love- 1 ; Me-0.
Love, you won this time but I've still got a few more seasons left in me, a few more trades pending, and more room under my heart salary cap. Do not lock me out just yet. I am a vet that may not be able to start but I'm a great bench player. I won't retire until I expire.
~fin
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