Lost

 

I love you…perhaps you just thought it was something said because we were caught up in the moment and I was staring in your eyes. Perhaps you’ve heard it once too often and everyone else who’s said it to you has eventually caused your hurt or harm. I mean to do neither. Love is foreign, distant and totally new to me. I’ve loved before but I’ve never been *IN* love. And I wanted to share that feeling with you.

Sadly,I didn’t say I loved you first. That milestone came from you. Perhaps you said it because we were caught up in the moment and you were staring in my eyes. Perhaps, you thought I never heard it enough and you wanted to see if I was really open and wished to cause me hurt or harm. Or possibly both. Maybe love is close and the mere uttering of it is old and the effects are predictable to you. Could it be that you’ve never loved before or possibly been *IN* love way too many times…Or is it that you didn’t want to share that feeling with me?

I told you that you’re “gonna love me one day”, your reply:” Not before you love me first”. Seems like that moment in life, might never happen.