date if one wanted to date.
We lay up for hours, laughing, talking, touching, kissing and fucking
But I feel quilty through it all because she wants more without sayin' she wants more. She wants to get together and take our kids to the circus, to the puppet show, on day trips out of town.
I just want her to fill the small voids in my life that only a woman can fill without filling the huge void that include titles and feelings of belonging. I don't want to be accountable for anyone or to anyone. I don't want to feel committed to late night phone calls, "where are you/what are you doing" text and things to that degree.
I just want things on my own terms and I seem to make up those terms as I go along.
I don't even want to see other people--I just want the freedom to not feel obligated. I want her to like me without falling in love with me.
But she's already said " I love you...."
and as a result, I've got to let her go because any further dealings will only hurt her more and will only birth more questions. Normally I'd just disappear but she's an around the way girl that lives around the way. What can I do. She knows where I'm at and who I hang with. She's sweet and everything you'd want in a mate, if you wanted a mate.
All is fair in love and war and right now my heart isn't worth sitting around or fighting for. I'm just in Love's store browsing with no intent or desire to purchase.
It wasn't fair to tell you to wait
So I told you to skate
you chose not to
now look at the sh*t we gotta go thru (C) Blue Ivy's Daddy
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