i want nothing but you...but when I'm away which as of recently has been alot, I still think of you but try to convince myself that I need/want and should be thinkin' about others.
we work together , so this'll never work. At least that's what I convince myself into believing. But when I think about it all and all that we've enjoyed and shared in the two years that we were supposedly just one another's "jump off" ---we were everything but.
Make me want you, make me miss you
make me wonder where you are, then forget you
Girl remind me, just who we are
We’re oh so close, but yet so far (C) Andre 3 stax
We're so close to being everything that you want us to be, but the pressure from you combined with my insecurities of being in another heartfelt relationship and havin' it end bitterly just makes me want to run from it all. I'd rather lose you now than lose you and myself in the end.
I'm the master of endin' love or atleast what I think might be love. . I'm self sabotaging, and I'm beginning to think it's a trait that I can't shake. No one wants to hurt...but as they say hurt people, hurt people. So by protecting myself (from future hurt), I'm hurting you. You text me, you call me and I see them all---each and every one, but I don't respond. Not because I don't want to but because I don't want to string you along any further than I already have.
I've cloaked and draped myself underneath a fabric of being a total asshole towards you. I'm not proud of that. I seem to do this in cycles and regardless of how bad it was the time before you take me back as if the months we are apart were just mere days. You're down for me and while I realize it---I can't comprehend how you see so much in me when I get and act so distant and indifferent towards our situation.
I'm gonna get it together soon.
